Sorry for not posting as often.
Struggling with some emotional trauma these days.
I wonder if its just plain unluckiness or is it that God's trying to say that I'm not ready yet.
Twice bitten ; thrice NO MORE.
Hurt in the same way twice ; just that this time, I fell harder.
I guess I'm too foolish to have believed.
In princesses and their knights ; happily ever afters & west coast park.
I've come to realise that promises can be everything & nothing.
Cause they can be broken so very easily.
Maybe I shouldnt have been caught off guard so fast.
Maybe I shouldnt have fallen into this thing so quickly.
Maybe I shouldnt have been so foolish to believe that if I gave ; I would be treated back the same nice way as well.
I know the few weeks of memories maybe arent much to speak of ; but to me ; they are.
I know its not going to be so easy to erase ; & I'm not planning to erase them.
I'm treating it as a fall ; as a lesson.
I'm not going to be so foolish; to be played around by fate anymore.
I think I'm going to get a phobia of pple coming into my life & then cutting themselves out of it for unknown reasons & hurting me as a result.
This thing caused me countless sleepless nights ; tears.
I want to face the truth ; but you dont seem to want me to even know the truth.
I dont want to walk away with question marks like last time anymore.
Cause I dont think its my fault at all.
& if it is ; tell me.
Yeah, the truth's going to hurt.
But with my heart so purple ; I guess another blow wont do much harm.
I'll just cry it all out once & for all.
Thanks for the memories, the highlighter ; the drink ; the smses ; the helping to hold things ; the calls ; everything.
I'll remember the sad parts too ; cause it was no fairytale.
It wasnt even a happy starting ; not to mention a happy ending.
So ; I'll go if you want me to.
Sorry for all the trouble caused.
Just tell me the truth & I wont disturb you again.
I'll learn to be positive without you teaching.
I'll go to West Coast Park to learn how to ride a bicycle myself.
I'll motivate myself to study.
For now on ; it'll be myself & me.
Since I very well know, you're regretting me entering your life.
Maybe what Belinda said from the start was right.
But its too late to change the past anyway.
I'll treat my own purple heart ; you treat yours.
If it is even purple.
Stay happy ; cause whatever it is ; I never want to see you sad.
But I guess even if you are ; I wouldnt be able to see or know.
So our paths crossed for that very little time.
But in that little time ; so much happened that when everything's disappearing ;
it hurts ; a lot.
God ; I'll take the hint.
I'm going to let my heart wear an armour ; so its not going to break so easily again.
Fallen twice from cloud nine.
I dont think I can afford falling a third time the same way.
I'm going to be extra careful now ; cause I'm extra fragile now.
So ; Police Wannabe ; you're free.
If we meet again ; on the 5th of July ; dont blame me if I cant smile.
Cause the hurt's too much to bear.