It has been exactly a month since you left.
&& today's going to be the day when it all ends.
A FULLSTOP TO EVERYTHING.
CAUSE I'M MOVING ON.
Dwelling in the past would end me up no where.
Besides ; I dont care if you treated everything as some stupid game you enjoyed playing or you were true.
Since you decided to leave ; I wont stay at square one too.

New beginning ; new blogskin.
I'M NOT EMO.
Just telling you guys that I really am emotional.
My feelings change super fast ; if you realise.
I think only my God-brother realised. :DD

Yesterday night ;
I cried like mad.
My tears kept flowing & flowing & flowing ; there was nothing I could do to stop them.
My parents were unhappy that I reached home at 7.50pm & that I always have something on after school.
They had this major talk with me ; asking me if I could cope ; ask me to quit hockey ;suspected that I skive around outside after school ; talk about streaming & if I dont work harder I wont get the combination I want ; blah de blah de blah.
&& I just cried & cried.
The tears practically flowed down my cheeks & drop onto my shirt.
& I didnt bother do anything.

I didnt really like the way they spoke.
I wished they'll know that I want them to communicate with me ; but not like that.
I dont want them to only say "If you have any questions you dont know how to do ; ask."
I want them to tell me that I can tell them anything ; troubles & all.
They dont even know I changed cliques ; which artistes I like ; what books I like to read ; they know so little about me.
I can never open up to them.

I dont even know how I'm going to tell my parents I want to know more about christ & go to church to see how its like.
I dont want to only hear people's opinions about christ ;
I want to see & experience everything myself.

So much to do ; so little time.
Still have projects to do ; prove myself to my parents ; weigh the advantages & disadvantages of hockey & loads more.

OKAY ; thats the not so happy part.
However ; there's no happy part today.
NO WORRIES ;I'LL STILL ACTIVATE THAT POSITIVENESS IN ME.
I'LL STILL PUT ON THAT SMILE.
ITS SPLENDOURS ; WONDEROUS ; RESPLENDENT-ROUS ; GLAMOUROUS ; AWESOME-ROUS.
HAHA.
I'm not always ego ; so give me a chance today yeahs?((:

Avril Lavigne
- My Happy Ending

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oooooh....

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

[Pre-Chorus:]
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it (but we lost it)
All of the memories, so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending (Oh oh, oh oh)

Oh oh, oh oh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they (So are they)
But they don't know me
Do they even know you? (Even know you)
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do (All the shit that you do)

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there,
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done


[Chorus:]
He was everything, everything that I wanted
And We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending...

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
And we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh....
Oh oooooh....

I dont deny it was something special ; now its over. The splendor no more.
The memories written down in a corner of my heart. We'll move on in oppsite directions. You go left ; I'll go right.