Through today, I felt for myself how important friends are.
Friends cheer me up so much.
I was like super sad last night and this morning; but Fluffy and Sugar made me happy again(:

This morning, I forgot I had to be in school early.
Had a bad night.
My dad got to know that I didn't do my D&T design journal.
He asked me about it, I said I lost the book and I didn't care; since its D&T.
And my parents started scolding me for my bad attitude.
But I guess I have to agree with the being rude part and everything.
So now, I bet they think I'm a problem kid with a bad attitude, who only knows how to hug her computer all day, MSN and SMS.

I know I shouldn't shout at them and all;but ain't their expectations like high?
when my mum accused me of taking her watch, they expected me to help her find.
Like HELLO?!
Let's say someone said you stole their stuff, would you help them find?
Pttf.

I mean, other 14 year olds can MSN, SMS, talk on the phone,and I can't.
And the last time I heard my parents compliment me was who knows when.
They don't care whether I get hockey medals or do relatively well in exams.
So, there's no motivation at all.
They don't care anyway.
They never support me in anything I do, be it hockey or religion.

Damian tells me that I'm dead wrong to think that my parents don't love me.
But, how does parental love feel like?
Cause I don't know anymore.
My heart's numbed.
I cried last night, I didn't sleep well.
My head hurt this morning, I was so sleepy.

This morning in the train, someone just had to kick me when I was down.
So much for being there all the time for me.
Turned everything into lies and past tense in a split second;
and wanted everything to return back in the next.
I teared 3 drops of tears in the train, I'm such a loser.
Because people never fail to make me cry.

Well, we had interhouse cheers today.
Keller came in fourth. ):

We had A math bridging course today on indices.
Sucked.
Bored me so much, I listened a bit, took down some stuff, took photos with Sugar.

Deeparaya concert, I got to understand how malays and Indians feel during CNY.
I couldn't understand a thing.
The concert was from 12.45 to 2.15.
So long. :/

I went for lunch and burnt my tongue while eating congee.
How sucky is that?

I'm hungry and tired.
Sick of everything.

Results are released tmr, wonder how badly I'll do.
I wonder how shitty my life can get.

By the way, Ms Ang wants to see me tmr.
I bet she'll ask me if I want to quit hockey.
yes, I do.
I'll be in choir, doing what I like most, singing.
I'll sing my lungs out, till I have no more voice left.

Its car free day tmr;
can't wait to see fluffy and sugar(: