Let's start with last night.
My brother vomited.
My mum blamed my dad saying stuff like don't know how my dad help him brush teeth,brush until vomit.
Then my dad got pissed with my mum shouting back that since she's so good,she can brush my brother's teeth next time and saying that she always pushes everything to him.
And my mum scolded me for not spending time with my brother and playing the computer the whole day. :/
And,my mum wanted my maid to use newspaper to clean up the vomit first;
but my maid just used the towel straight away, adding to her fire.
So,I spent some time with my bro after things calmed down.
Talked to him,played a bit.
He bit my finger!
I was trying to see if he really would. And he did.
But,I couldn't really sleep last night.
Cause I was feeling so scared.
I was crying before I slept.
You know me,my imagination always runs wild.
Cause recently,my lower part of my heart aches sometimes.
Its just like short but quite sharp pain.
Experienced quite a bit yesterday.
and I let my imagination run so wild,until I was imagining that the doctor would tell me I only have 3 months to live.
And I was trying to do all the things I haven't done and spending time with my loved ones.
And I'll still get the heartaches and I'll pass out.
And end up in hospital and everyone would crowd around me crying.
And before I die they'll fake a smile.
And at my funeral,they'll be saying all the nice stuff.
And seriously,I got so scared.
God,please tell me its just a case of being over paranoid or not enough exercise and not some heart disease.:/
But today was better,
I only felt the pain twice and my lung capacity smallen in the morning.
Spent my whole afternoon shopping with my mum and sister.
I guess retail therapy really helps.
Hahha.
I bought lots of stuff,felt happy.
Except the part when someone made me feel so extra.
I still remember okay.
Dinner was spaghetti at home.
I'm so lucky to have my grandma.
I'm going to treasure everything and everyone from now on.
I find myself,falling deeper into your trap than you into mine.