ARGH.
I'm going insane.
I can't find my pink church notebook.
I'm going bonkers.
If I can't find it, I'm so dead.
I hate it,whenever I feel sad, then something else hits me and I get super irritated and angry.
So much that I feel like cursing and swearing and shouting into my pillow till I lose my breath.
I'm supposed to be at church now.
Singing to Planetshakers songs and worshipping God wholeheartedly.
But I got rejected again.
Feelings of rejection just cut so much you know.
And I everytime I just cry, feeling so helpless.
But today, I told myself I have to honour my parents,so I gave up the Satanic thought of slipping out of home.
This morning, I woke up at 8.15 to do Masterlife till 9.15.
Its a miracle I woke up so early, since its Sunday.
I really tried to finish all my homework to go for Planetshakers.
But.
So I'm singing to their songs at home.
How pathetic right.
Yesterday,I cried quite a lot at church.
Especially when we sang "In Your freeedom, I will live".
I couldnt help myself but pour out.
Cause I thought, I'm living in freedom and how much can I do for my loved ones, for they are living in darkness.
Just like what Pastor Mike said, everytime we feel we're getting closer to God, a chain just pulls us back.
Be it circumstances or bad habits or situation.
And we just go back to square one.
But I'll try harder.
Cause I know Jesus will help me.
Yesterday night, I found out a really happy sort of secret.
hahah, I've got a admirer.
Sec 1 crescent junior la.
Don't let your thoughts go wild.
But I was very happy and high.
Friday night was great.
I went for Crezawards with Kar Yee,Nicole and Si Jia.
There were a lot of other beauties were around too.
We screamed a lot during the concert.
When Jollin started out, I stood up and shouted I love you Jollin.
When Pearlyn started, I cheered for her a lot.
When Ariel sand her under the sea, I cheered for her a lot too.
When Juniper sang, I was over the top. Super high, screamed lots.
Of course, Juniper won. (:
She's my idol. Totally.
Here's wishing everybody a belated Valentines.
Jesus love you, I love you too.
Let's love one other like He did.
Sorry, if I've shown any dislike to you, I really do still love all of my friends and people around me. (: