Although these don't give me the hope I need, but its very pleasing.

"A little girl was dying of cancer and her younger brother had a match for the bone marrow she needed. The doctors told him it was a matter of life and death. After he had the surgery, he asked the doctors how long he had to live. He thought if he gave his bone marrow to let his sister live he would die but he did it anyway."

"One of my classmates in high school had leukemia, and he was really depressed after his first round of chemo when he came to school with no hair. When they found out about it, all 70+ members of the varsity football team shaved their heads too. Their yearbook picture is the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. "

"I suffer from severe depression. I try to keep that part of me away from friends because I'm worried they'll judge me for it. After revealing this to a dear friend via email, he went silent. I went to bed feeling worse than ever. Early the next morning, there was a knock at the door. He had driven all night to see me, just to give me a hug. "

"Today, I saw a boy asking an elderly lady if he could help carry her groceries to her car. He was 7."

"Today on the bus, a man got up to give an old woman his seat. He was even older than she was. "

"Today, I went on an airplane by myself for the first time. I have an extreme fear of heights and I'm only 15. As the flight was about to take off a flight attendant noticed i was shaking and gripping the seat. She took the empty seat next to me and held my hand until we were safely in the air and then brought me a brownie"

"Today is my birthday. A couple months ago I was attacked by a dog that left horrendous scars on my face. My boyfriend made a book that says "You're the most beautiful thing I have ever seen" in over 100 different languages. "

From www.givesmehope.com and http://modelstatusxquotes.xanga.com/

I need hope.
Desperately.
I need hope to see that my studies would get better.
I received the email that I have to do a re-common test for a math and I need to work extremely hard for EOYs.
I probably border line passed, again.
I was expecting myself to do better.
If my a math is this way, my e math is probably dead.

I need hope to see that things are going to get better.
That I'll be able to go to a good JC.
I'm like studying, but its fruitless.
I don't know why.
I guess more effort needs to come in.
But its tough.
I don't know what to do to rectify things.
Do more?
No matter how I study for bio, the questions come out different.
No matter how I study for E math, they twist the questions so cruelly that I can't apply.
Where are the results that I need to glorify God and have a good testimony.

My life is so screwed period.

I'm suffering from parental problems.
I'm suffering from bad results.
I'm suffering from emotional pain.
I'm suffering from not having my own happy story.

Everyone seems to have one to tell.

" oh, I improved in ___ subject"
"oh, I went out with my friends to catch ______ the movie"
"oh, cell was great we learnt ____"
"oh, I went to church with my family/ I help my mum at children service."
And dramas just love to cut in more with all the couples happily ever afters and wonderful life.

I'm just so tired, worn out of being the one looking happy all the time.
I need a break to just be emotional.
To tell the truth, I've become more sensitive now.
I cry a whole lot more.
During shows even.
I never was this weak.
Shows seldom made me cry.

I need God in my life more.
I feel desperate all of a sudden.
Cause I realise, me fighting alone isn't enough.

What they said at church is so true, without God, I'm nothing.

They tell you to dream big.
I think they'll just cut more.
When you realise with the state you are in now, you probably won't get that wonderful future of living in a condo with your husband and drive a car to work at a pretty place.

won't someone just tell me this?

"and every time you feel like crying, i'm gonna try and make you laugh. and if i can't, if it just hurts too bad, then we will wait for it to pass. and I will keep you company through those days so long and black."

won't someone just give me a hug and tell me, don't cry, its going to be alright.